Over many years of dealing with depression, suicidal thinking, cutting and anxiety I have had a lot of time to myself to think. I think so much I often have to drown it out to sleep. A therapist i had years back suggest i keep a journal for many of such thoughts. To this day i still like to write in it.

As I read back what i’ve written, I can see how much my thought process has changed over the years. I may now be healthier than i’ve ever been. I want to share many of the things i’ve written, from over the years when i was at my worst, till the long and hard thoughts i had last night. I hope over the course of my posts people will understand who I am, and why I am the way that I am.