Another new year has come. First and foremost I should once again give another toast to all who suffer silently. Living day by day, year by year. It is much harder then you would believe.
Such occasions as today bring a sense of frustration to me. I can’t help but look back and wonder what I achieved this year. I question if being alive is enough of an achievement? Am not sure how many New Years I even really remember, In a few years I likely will forget this one as well. Many like this one were spent sitting alone, lost in thought. “Where do we come from, and where are we going?” are questions everyone struggles with. It’s a struggle to try and just live in the now.
My dog is running around the house in a panic because he is scared of fireworks. He has no concept of a year passing. To him, that loud banging noise is the most important thing. Despite the fact the world did not end the last time he heard it, nor will it end the next time. There is only now. Perhaps that is a better way to live. His brother dog died the past year. He misses him, but I don’t think he is entirely capable of dwelling on it like I am. So I say to myself and anyone reading. Be more like a dog, the past and future will always be there but you are currently alive in the now.