Bullying

Have you ever been bullied? have you ever been the bully? I have. Bullying is a stigma that only exists because others allow it to exist. I was bullied growing up, and that lack of self confidence allowed me to ignore others who were the same. Because I ignored others pain I was just as responsible for it as the one who started the bullying. I was on the bottom of the totem poll so often that it felt good to see someone become lower than me. To my shame, I once stuck gum in a classmates notebook and laughed with the rest of the class. I’ve managed to block out much of my childhood, but this memory still haunts me.
Kids would call me names, knock my papers out of my hands, stink bomb my locker. Yet none of that hurt more then being ignored. I wasn’t a bully, and the times i was bullied were likely few and far in the grand scheme of things. I was a lonely child that was more afraid of having to be in a group project then being beaten up after school. Yet, I know the feeling of being on the bottom, with everyone around you laughing. There were also times I joined in that laughter, just because anything felt better then being on the outside of it. I may not remember much of my childhood, but both memories stay clear in my mind to this day.

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One thought on “Bullying

  1. I’ve been both. Sometimes it’s hard to see yourself as the bully. I know I didn’t realise I was until one convo w friends. Then I went to the girl and apologised. After that I try to be more aware of what I say. You never know what buttons people have…words are powerful

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