Early on in my therapy i was told to find a calming place. A place in my head that creates a calm feeling, a memory to look back on to feel calm. So i had to reflect on calm moment in my life. There is a moment that comes to mind. Since i was little i would sneak out of my room in the middle of the night to lie downstairs next to my dog. I would lay my head on the floor, in the dark and just sit and pet my dog. Over the years the dog has changed over one heartbreak or the next, but the action has not. I still enjoy this, the dark wiping away all sights, little to no sounds in the air. Just the feeling of soft fur, that let me pretend for a moment i was not alone.