Pain

Its hard for onlookers to know the sheer amount of emotional pain depression brings. The kind of pain that drives a girl to drink bleach, and others like me to cut themselves. It hurts, its scaring, it leaves wounds that can be reopened even years later. It can paralyze you, i spent more then one night on tear filled ball on the floor. We are victims to our emotions.

A suicide in the newspaper can still bring me to tears, i still find myself visiting the spot where others have jumped in front of a train. Perhaps am just empathetic in that way, but i find it hard to stop thinking about how much pain they where in. I felt that pain before, i remember it well. I don’t want others to feel that pain. I want to live in a world where if someone crys help me in the middle of the night, there will be someone around to hear them.

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2 thoughts on “Pain

  1. I have struggled with depression for decades. The meds I now take help. Important is to realize is that the moods are not normal emotion but manipulated by chemical imbalances in the brain. Sorta like real and yet not real at the same time. I know this will pass and that helps to not let it immobilize me. The “outsiders” can never know that when it hits it is so profoundly powerful that being sad or being depressed are words that cannot begin to describe. Professional help I recommend because sometimes you have to exercise just plain stubbornness in developing strategies to combat it and talk therapy helped me. Chronic depression unchecked will destroy us. Thanks visit my blog.

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