Birthdays

“Another birthday is comeing, it brings with it fear, anxity, thoughts of the past. am afraid of falling back into my problems. My birthday makes me feel so alone, but i cant think that way anymore.

Its is 5am on my birthday, i feel empty. Am i ment to feel sad? or even happy? I dont know how i feel, i cant even get feeling going enough to wright. How much of my feelings have i locked away and how much have i worked out? Locked feelings will come back to haunt me some time or another”

Looking Back: You will find many entry’s about my birthdays in my journals. Its still very hard to understand why i become so sad. The most simple answer is i get lonely, i evaluate my place in this world too much and find myself wanting. The last line “Locked feelings will come back to haunt me some time or another” shows progress in my understanding of myself.

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