Over many years of dealing with depression, suicidal thinking, cutting and anxiety i have had a lot of time to myself to think. I think so much i often have to drawn it out to sleep. A therapist i had years back suggest i keep a journal for many of such thoughts. To this day i still like to wright in it.

As i read back what ive written, i can see how much my thought process has changed over the years. I may now be healthier then ive ever been. I want to share many of the things ive written, from over the years when i was at my worst, till the long and hard thoughts i had last night. I hope over the course of my posts people will understand who i am, and why i am the way that i am.